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No Calls-Part Two

Sunday, October 19th, 2008

Again, no calls throughout the night which is excellent.  I finally fell asleep probably around 1am, and woke up around 8am, so I’m just getting ready to head in.

Playing a song in my head this morning by Third Day and thought I would share…

Thought that I was all alone
Broken and afraid
But You were there with me
Yes, You were there with me

And I didn’t even know
That I had lost my way
But You were there with me
Yes, You were there with me

‘Til You opened up my eyes
I never knew
That I couldn’t ever make it
Without You

Even though the journey’s long
And I know the road is hard
Well, the One who’s gone before me
He will help me carry on
After all that I’ve been through
Now I realize the truth
That I must go through the valley
To stand upon the mountain of God

As I travel on the road
That You have lead me down
You are here with me
Yes, You are here with me
I have need for nothing more
Oh, now that I have found
That You are here with me
Yes, You are here with me

I confess from time to time
I lose my way
But You are always there
To bring me back again

Sometimes I think of where it is I’ve come from
And the things I’ve left behind
But of all I’ve had, what I possessed
Nothing can quite compare
With what’s in front of me
With what’s in front of me

Can’t Sleep

Saturday, October 18th, 2008

Been trying for almost 4 hours to sleep, to no avail.  I’m just doing this constant play by play of the “what ifs” and pleading with God for relief.  Pray that my brain will shut off for the night so I can rest.

Called the hospital, Kevin is now on a constant sedation drip and another med so that he will not remember any of this.  It has made him more comfortable.  Good news there 🙂

Upcoming Events!

Saturday, October 18th, 2008

Boitson Medical Fundraiser:

A gathering of friends and family to help raise money for Kevin’s medical bills. Tickets are $12.00 and are now aailable. If you require multiple tickets please contact Ken by e-mail at [email protected]

Saturday October 25th from 8pm to 1am

St. Joseph’s Mens Club

1476 Main Street

Winnipeg, Manitoba

Please email my brother in law Ken at the above email address for all the details, and if you have anything to donate or ways you can help!  Also, pass this information along so we can have an amazing turnout!

THANK YOU!

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Boitson Prayer Vigil

Monday, October 20th-6:30-?

Lancaster General Hospital Chapel

James Street (near the corner of Lime)

Lancaster, Pa

Come out to give special prayer for us during this difficult time.  Stop by the chapel inside the main lobby anytime 6:30 or after!

Thank you for all you do!

To Bed With It

Saturday, October 18th, 2008

Heading to bed EARLY tonight to relieve some of this tension.  Just called in to check.  Kevin’s stomach ultrasound came back and they found fluid in his stomach.  Appears to be no leaks which is good.  They are going to discuss doing a stomach drain via needle (I assume) tomorrow and also look at taking him off the heart rate medication as he is still stable!

He was awake for a little tonight, and was calm during that time, so pray he stays that way throughout the night so we can get some good, much needed, rest.

Much love to you Kev-I’m thinking of you always.

Love Bren

I Am

Saturday, October 18th, 2008

I am…exhausted, frightened, worried, hopeful, faithful, tearful, joyful, sorrowful, emotional, anxious, burdened, and just plain afraid.  I keep reading the devotionals that say to not fear, to be joyful in our sorrow, to put our anxieties and worries onto the Lord.  I am, but I still feel all these emotions.  It’s just plain hard.

This morning Kevin continued to be stable, when they moved him before I got there, his heart went into the worrisome rhythm, with thankfully no heart-rate increase.  They moved his body two more times today, and both times his rhythm stayed stable, and his blood pressure and heart-rate looked good.

He is officially off the blood pressure meds, but is now on a med for his heart-rate to keep is down.  They hope to take it off by tomorrow.  There are obviously no talks right now of getting him off the ventilator because of how critical he is.  They were also unable to start a drip feed today because of his condition.

Kevin’s belly is very distended today, even while they are draining the G-tube.  They took an ultra-sound to see if the surgery that was done, is now leaking causing the excess fluid in his abdomen.  It’s also possible he just needs to have a bowel movement to get rid of this distention.  Due to his critical state, he is unable to be taken down for a CAT scan, and that would be the best test to do.

We are still waiting on both the ultrasound and blood culture tests to come back to confirm/deny MRSA as well as to see what’s going on with his abdomen.  If there is a leak in his abdomen, and he stays stable until Monday, we will discuss him being transferred to Hopkins to possibly have surgery to fix the problem.  However, he needs to show some type of increase in his condition by Monday in order for them to feel comfortable sending him even outside of his room.

He is in a very critical state, and just the overwhelming thoughts were a lot for me this morning.  I’m not doing well processing any of this, so right now, I just AM a bunch of things.  Linda and I left around 4:15 because I just needed a break tonight from it.  Kevin is stable and able to sleep fairly peacefully right now, so unless he’s very anxious, or something major happens, I’ll be home all tonight.

Pray that he not only stays stable, but that he improves so that we can have a positive outlook ahead.  This will mean his heart-rate needs to stay lower on it’s own, as well as the rhythm staying stable.  His blood pressure will need to hold, and the chest xrays will need to look better from the insertion of the chest tube drainage.  Quite a bit needs to happen to be considered positive, so please pray for this.

I tried to talk to Kevin while he was awake about post-life decisions, but it was just too difficult for him.  I felt so bad afterwards, seeing how it upset him.  Unfortunately, we never truly discussed what he would want for post-life, and I hope that if it comes down to that, I can make the right decision.

I am praying and continually hoping for a miracle for him.  He has been my miracle man, and I feel he is still so strong of heart, that he can survive this.  The future looks bleak, but we trust in God to lead him through this.  We know God is capable of the unfathomable, so we pray for the unfathomable miracle.

Please pray that my anxieties will release and I can focus on the present moments with him, and know that the Lord is taking care of the past, present and future for us.

No Calls

Saturday, October 18th, 2008

No calls throughout the night which is an EXCELLENT thing.  I’m just getting ready to head in.  Pray that Linda can continue to get the rest she needs after being up for 36+ hours!

Thank you all for your prayers, and I’ll update when I can.

Love Bren

No Borders

Friday, October 17th, 2008

…Sarcoma Knows No Borders..

…and neither does the love and miracle of God!

I just called to check in with Kevin’s nurse before hitting the sac, and was informed his heart rate is down to 90!  His blood pressure is holding even while he is almost off of the pressor medication that was helping it stay up!  His heart rhythms are “normalizing”!

This disease attacks hard, but God’s faith and hope are hitting harder.

Praise God.

Prayer Vigil

Friday, October 17th, 2008

We invite you all out to a special prayer vigil for Kevin, on Monday evening October 20th starting at 6:30.  It will be located at Lancaster General Hospital chapel which is located on James Street (near the corner of Lime and James).  The chapel is small, so come when you can anytime 6:30 and after.

More Details to come.

God is Listening

Friday, October 17th, 2008

In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while, if need be, you have been grieved by various trials,  that the genuineness of your faith, being much more precious than gold that perishes, though it is tested by fire, may be found to praise, honor, and glory at the revelation of Jesus Christ,  whom having not seen you love. Though now you do not see Him, yet believing, you rejoice with joy inexpressible and full of glory,  receiving the end of your faith—the salvation of your souls.”
1 Peter 6-10

First off, thank you all for your comments.  It is so encouraging for me to read during this difficult time.  This morning I woke just before 9am to start the day.  I was still exhausted, but didn’t want to waste anytime to see how Kevin had done overnight.

I found Kevin was pretty stable, with his blood pressures around 90/50 and that his heart rate was still in the 130’s.  His temp was around 103.6.  He was still ventilated and thankfully well sedated.

Our great nurse, Jim was there with some of the doctors who informed me that Kevin definitely has a serious staff infection, and possibly MRSA (Methicillin-resistant Staphylococcus auerus).  He was placed in isolation, meaning gloves and gowns are to be worn at all times as a precaution.

I started off by just praying with Kevin, and then wiping his body down with iced washcloths.  Kevin was also given tylenol, and over the course of 2-3 hours, his temp dropped down to 99.9.  What an amazing improvement, as with it came his heart rate, to around 110!

Kevin did become more aware mid-day, and we got to communicate a bit before I asked for them to keep him as sedated as possible during the vent process.

Linda arrived late afternoon, after my mom, Pastor Curtiss & Robyn and “cousin” Kristen came to visit.  We got to sit with Kevin and just catch up, enjoying his stability and definite improvement from the night earlier.

Around 7pm, Kevin’s heart rate doubled to around 200 out of nowhere.  We were quickly rushed out of the room, as the nurses scrambled to see what was happening.  They gave him some medicine which brought his heart rate down, but his blood pressure dropped to around 70/40 during the episode, then came back up.

He had several episodes of the high heart rate again, until eventually, one attack kept him at 200 with pressures around 75/40.  We were very scared.  The nurse finally got a hold of the cardiac group and a wonderful doctor arrived within 15 minutes.  It was agreed to give him some angio medicine to calm him, and to shock him back to rhythm.

They gave him a slight sedation (they could not give him full sedation due to his pressures dropping), and shocked him.  It brought him out of the rhythm issue, and back down to about 115!!  Praise God.

The issue seems to be a flutter at the top of the heart.  The flutter was running about 300 beats per minute, but the bottom muscle of the heart was keeping the flutter from running that high, however, the flutter still caused his heart-rate to jump to 200.  The flutter is still there, but it’s not running as high.

We are unsure what causes the flutter.  It could be any number of things: the staff, the tumor, general heart issues.  We may never know, but it was under control when we left the hospital.

It’s been a raw, emotional day, and we pray that Kevin’s strong will can get him through this.  As I’ve heard many times, “If anyone can get through this, it’s Kevin”, and with his strong faith in God, I am still believing in God’s miracle healing.  We trust His will, and know there is an ultimate purpose for this, but also trust that in God, miracles are unseemingly possible!

Pray with us tonight for Kevin’s stability, doctors guidance, our rest, and recovery.  Thank you all.

Heading In

Friday, October 17th, 2008

Just woke up here around 9, and I’m getting ready to head in to see Kev.  No calls throughout the night are a GOOD THING.  Linda will be arriving at BWI early this afternoon, and my brother is going to pick her up-big thanks.

I am very drained both physically, emotionally and mentally right now.  Pray I have the strength to fully BE there with Kev and to be a positive force for him.

Thanks for your continued prayers, and I’ll update when I can.

Love Bren